Blar...and Forevermore...and Blar.

God, how sad is it that I still post on here?   Anywho, for all those deprived of my everyday bullshit...I have snakes. Nine in fact. One is an Anaconda, his name is Mr. Kitty...and he is the sweetest snake in the world. So fuck you Hollywood...giving my Mr. Kitty a bad name. Fuck you.

*huggle Mr. Kitty*

I suppose now would be the appropriate time to break down, it is winter after all...but sadly, everything around me seems to be taking that path...my money, my love, my sanity, and yet, I still remain as I've always been. Is it bad that I'm finding myself approaching 20 but have trouble remembering that I'm a lot older than 16? Do I so long for the naive innocence attached to that number? I wish every night that he could be happy, and every morning I still wake up as myself...so my wishes can't be getting far, can they? I sometimes think I should have been more protective of the friends I had...all the ones that went away, and all the ones that lived in my head. I miss them all...all what, 7 of them? I need to get to a place I don't know, and while he says I don't have to change myself, I can't help but wonder why he lies to me so fowardly...obviously ME isn't what he wanted...always her. Always her...no fucking wonder I enjoy my facade so much. Everyone loves her, and once I let her fade and open myself, they dissapate.  So this is my farewell to her, to me, really. I know she hurts me, us...but it's better this way.  My secrets are my own, and now my sadness and tears will be too. I always hated to cry in front of him.

Goodbye Vikki...be no more. Please, welcome back the Girl...for her name has too many memories for me.

I fade. Try to pretend you'll miss me, won't you?

Love and Bloody Kisses....

Always,

Eb.

!!!ATTENTION!!!

For any of my friends that are interested and want to make a lil bit of extra money, but mostly are going to be reliable!!!

For Trick or Treating this year, I was planning on putting fliers out to hire myself and so far Joe, (depending on iterest I may need more) to take kids trick or treating, whose parents either don't want to or can't for some reason. No idea as far as charges go...probably something like 10 bucks a kid, 4-5 kids in a group (no more than 5,for one person, no more than 8 for 2 people) each taking different areas. (Thistledown kids, town kids, Wheatstone kids...etc.) Only requirements are that you don't stiff me and back out at the last minute, and that you have a costume and nifty name to go with it. (Nothing too scary or adult...obviously)

I, aptly enough will be Marvella the Halloween Faerie.

Leave me a comment if you're interested or if you've got any questions. I've already had a bit of interest from parents I know in the area...they think it's genius.

Vikkums

Haven't done one in FOREVER....so whatever.

1) Using band names, spell out your name
V-oltaire

I-ncubus

K-MFDM

K-ing Crimson

I-NXS